If you were sent to prison for an undefined amount of time, what would you miss most?
I actually think about this a lot, especially since I feel like my art and thoughts could potentially get me into trouble. The more oppressive globalizationists and the theotechnocrats become, the more this paranoia comes to resemble an eventuality. Yet, I cannot violate my principles as a human being and say nothing. For this reason, I must prepare myself mentally to deal with the possibility of imprisonment by the will of a modern gestapo.
I've been "voluntarily" imprisoned in "mental health" facilities. I have a firm understanding of what it's like to be deprived of freedom and basic human dignity for extended periods of time. From what I understand, after talking to many prisoners, it's a very similar experience. When you're in the slammer or funny farm for long enough, you become "institutionalized" in the head.
If you figure out the game, you'll learn how to be a "better criminal" while still being a "model prisoner." Going home will be scarier than staying locked up. It has to be that way. Otherwise, the dehumazination gets to be too much and you'll need meds to erase emotions that make it impossible to survive. This is why I hold on to my insanity and regard it so dearly. It reminds me that I am still a person.
I would miss the outside world and I would never forget it. But, I must dispatch myself of any hope if I see no escape. Hope of escape or rescue is the worst curse that can befall on the captive. These notion are one useful when you are beyond hope, and are ready for "do or die."
I would try to be a model prisoner and adapt to my culture. This should buy me enough freedom to be myself. Superficial assimilation sometimes is the best way to not lose yourself. A pirate who smuggled some Aleve for me and my mom taught me that.
The exception to this rule would be if my captors were forcing me to commit treason, betray my loved ones, or violate a fundamental part of my moral directive. At that point, my goal would be to escape by any means necessary, including deadly violence. If escape is not possible, I will commit suicide before I can be restrained and tortured into violating my principles. Should suicide fail, I will try to stay as quiet and calm and possible while being tortured with the hope that death will come soon. I know I am capable of doing this. I must be.
This was a downer post.
