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If you were sent to prison for an undefined amount of time, what would you miss most?

I actually think about this a lot, especially since I feel like my art and thoughts could potentially get me into trouble. The more oppressive globalizationists and the theotechnocrats become, the more this paranoia comes to resemble an eventuality. Yet, I cannot violate my principles as a human being and say nothing. For this reason, I must prepare myself mentally to deal with the possibility of imprisonment by the will of a modern gestapo.

I've been "voluntarily" imprisoned in "mental health" facilities. I have a firm understanding of what it's like to be deprived of freedom and basic human dignity for extended periods of time. From what I understand, after talking to many prisoners, it's a very similar experience. When you're in the slammer or funny farm for long enough, you become "institutionalized" in the head.

If you figure out the game, you'll learn how to be a "better criminal" while still being a "model prisoner." Going home will be scarier than staying locked up. It has to be that way. Otherwise, the dehumazination gets to be too much and you'll need meds to erase emotions that make it impossible to survive. This is why I hold on to my insanity and regard it so dearly. It reminds me that I am still a person.

I would miss the outside world and I would never forget it. But, I must dispatch myself of any hope if I see no escape. Hope of escape or rescue is the worst curse that can befall on the captive. These notion are one useful when you are beyond hope, and are ready for "do or die."

I would try to be a model prisoner and adapt to my culture. This should buy me enough freedom to be myself. Superficial assimilation sometimes is the best way to not lose yourself. A pirate who smuggled some Aleve for me and my mom taught me that.

The exception to this rule would be if my captors were forcing me to commit treason, betray my loved ones, or violate a fundamental part of my moral directive. At that point, my goal would be to escape by any means necessary, including deadly violence. If escape is not possible, I will commit suicide before I can be restrained and tortured into violating my principles. Should suicide fail, I will try to stay as quiet and calm and possible while being tortured with the hope that death will come soon. I know I am capable of doing this. I must be.

This was a downer post.

What are you doing to "give back" during the Christmas season? Submitted by jacolily.

Forget giving back, we're just not taking. No Xmas gifts for us.

Openly keep, store away, or toss completely? What do you think should be done with past gifts from old flames after you've broken up and are with someone new? Submitted by miy6ko.

It depends...

What do you see yourself doing on this day next year? Submitted by Beautifully Broken.

Probably modeling at some school, getting myself prettied up, or working on my art.

Which 5 words would your best friend use to describe you?
Submitted by Ross.

Loki is my best friend, and he says:

"My hot Puerto Rican bombshell."

The best deal on Black Friday is extra sleep after work.

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Today is the official start of the holiday shopping season. Are you planning on doing any shopping today? What are you going to buy?

I bought breakfast and candy, because I had an early morning gig and the husband wanted a treat. No real shopping, as crowded malls stress me out. Black Friday and Buy Nothing Day are not major parts of my belief system.

I am thankful for my life and all the factors that shape it. Good and bad.

Where will you be eating Thanksgiving Dinner this year? 

I'll be eating at my mom's place.

What are your favorite Thanksgiving traditions? Anything you're not so fond of?

Favorite Thanksgiving tradition: The food.

Least favorite Thanksgiving tradition: Putting up with my mother-in-law's relatives passive-aggressive and bigoted statements about my career choice, my politics or, my ethnicity (usually focusing around public education requirements or how my husband is married to a "foreigner.")  I guess it's less rude than putting up with my ex-husband's grandparents statements about how Aborigines and Indian "almost look human" (way to make your Algonquin grandson and his Taino wife feel welcome,) but it still irritates me.  For this reason, I try to avoid Thanksgiving with my in-laws at all costs.  If I am not working at the Chicago Club, Loki and I usually spend it at my mom's place.